My Best Kiss – A Soul Mate Not Meant To Be

Sometimes people come into our lives to show us the better part of ourselves.

I remember it as though it were yesterday.  The impression left within my heart remains that strong.

But it was over 15 years ago I thought I had found my “one true love”.

Like many, I had read stories relating the idea of what “true love, soul mates and twin flames” would feel like.  And I was sure this was it.

The initial hunch was like nothing I had ever felt before, like a waltz from Disney’s Cinderella, though I had no idea how to dance.

It began innocently enough.  Introduced by a mutual friend from church, my soul mate and I set out on a journey that would take us to the core of our souls – a core of personal places long denied.

I realize now this journey through the heart was a means to help us see our own desires as well as insecurities.

It took a while to reign in that first kiss but when it arrived the electricity coursing through my soul opened crevices within me I had never felt before.

I felt alive!!!

For the first time I sensed “real love” and all it had been described to be.

Sex was fantastic, like nothing ever imagined.  It was raw, intimately physical and it was emotional.

The whimsical magnetism of the relationship walked a fine line between intimacy and sex, self and other, doubt and fear.

It was as though we were connected from the top of our heads to the bottoms of our soles.

And we were.  From out of the ether emerged two souls, unique in nature, reaching out for their better half. 

We finished each other’s sentences, read each other’s minds.  When alone, few words seemed necessary as instinctively we flowed from one space to another.

It was like magic.

Soul Mate Not Meant To Be

It was like magic

Lyrics vibrated with the sound of what our hearts were feeling.

Lonestar’s Amazed, one of the greatest songs from the era, resonated deep within, drawing us closer to one another.

“Every time our eyes meet, this feeling inside me is almost more than I can take.

Baby when you touch me, I can feel how much you love me, and it just blows me away.

I’ve never been this close to anyone or anything – I can hear your thoughts I can see your dreams.” 

We harmonized with Tim McGraw and Faith Hill as we sang “It’s Your Love.

Our time together was special.

It was true, and it was real. 

We both had dreams, desires, and passion.  We wanted the world, but were we too young to hold it?

I was single; my soul mate was not. Her teenage children, young grandchildren and estranged husband offered insight into a world I had never played in before.

It was no longer two single people entertaining the idea of a relationship – it was a family of people working together to create space for potential unity, peace and harmony.

Each was searching for something, but we were from two totally different worlds.

Did we move forward?  Could we move forward?

Could we take the measures necessary to see the truth behind what we were feeling?

Would we dip our toes in the water and flow with the uncertainty of what life was offering? 

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Why Can’t I Find Love?

Each of us has a right to love and to be loved. After all, love is the foundation of our soul, opening the energy centers of the heart where we feel connected to life.  But some may trust the idea that love is not for them.  Others may believe that love escapes them at every corner. Or, maybe you have stopped considering that your soul mate or Twin Flame truly exists. Love is available to everyone. The more we are willing to work on ourselves in relationship to others, the closer true love becomes.

Relationships take work.  They require us to be vulnerable, to be open to change and communication, to be open to receiving and open to letting go of what no longer serves us.  Two people living in harmony does not happen overnight, regardless of what the fairy tales say.  Each relationship we enter into, whether for love or friendship teaches us something about ourselves.  We have to look beneath the surface, and embrace the answers found in order for true love to enter.

Look Beneath the Surface

Look Beneath the Surface

Back in the 70’s, Karen Carpenter sang a song entitled “I Need To Be In Love”.  Perhaps one of the lines from her song hits home for you.

“I know I ask perfection in a quite imperfect world,

And fool enough to think that’s what I’ll find.”

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What Is Love?

“Souls recognize each other by vibes not by appearances.” — Unknown Author

True love is an energetic connection.  It is as familiar to us as we are to ourselves.  It is an ingrained soul vibration, not an appearance, or a date night, or even a political party affiliation, recognized by two people at all levels of there being.  When true love arrives, this soul vibration hits you in the gut and brings forth a revelation of déjà vu.  It is as though this true love soul vibration taps you on the shoulder and whispers in your ear, “I’ve known this person before”.

In today’s world we have an app for everything.  We use our mobile devices to locate people, places and objects, anything that grabs our attention.  We use social networks to track our friend’s likes, dislikes, comings and goings, and to post “selfies” of our own external reality.  Social networks are often our hunting ground where we try to fit pieces of our puzzle together in hopes of finding one true love.  But true love is not always easy to find.  It is often times necessary to disconnect from the World and connect with our own inner self in order for our Twin Flame, that mirror image of self, to arrive. Continue reading