Sometimes people come into our lives to show us the better part of ourselves.
I remember it as though it were yesterday. The impression left within my heart remains that strong.
But it was over 15 years ago I thought I had found my “one true love”.
Like many, I had read stories relating the idea of what “true love, soul mates and twin flames” would feel like. And I was sure this was it.
The initial hunch was like nothing I had ever felt before, like a waltz from Disney’s Cinderella, though I had no idea how to dance.
It began innocently enough. Introduced by a mutual friend from church, my soul mate and I set out on a journey that would take us to the core of our souls – a core of personal places long denied.
I realize now this journey through the heart was a means to help us see our own desires as well as insecurities.
It took a while to reign in that first kiss but when it arrived the electricity coursing through my soul opened crevices within me I had never felt before.
I felt alive!!!
For the first time I sensed “real love” and all it had been described to be.
Sex was fantastic, like nothing ever imagined. It was raw, intimately physical and it was emotional.
The whimsical magnetism of the relationship walked a fine line between intimacy and sex, self and other, doubt and fear.
It was as though we were connected from the top of our heads to the bottoms of our soles.
And we were. From out of the ether emerged two souls, unique in nature, reaching out for their better half.
We finished each other’s sentences, read each other’s minds. When alone, few words seemed necessary as instinctively we flowed from one space to another.
It was like magic.
Lyrics vibrated with the sound of what our hearts were feeling.
Lonestar’s Amazed, one of the greatest songs from the era, resonated deep within, drawing us closer to one another.
“Every time our eyes meet, this feeling inside me is almost more than I can take.
Baby when you touch me, I can feel how much you love me, and it just blows me away.
I’ve never been this close to anyone or anything – I can hear your thoughts I can see your dreams.”
We harmonized with Tim McGraw and Faith Hill as we sang “It’s Your Love.
Our time together was special.
It was true, and it was real.
We both had dreams, desires, and passion. We wanted the world, but were we too young to hold it?
I was single; my soul mate was not. Her teenage children, young grandchildren and estranged husband offered insight into a world I had never played in before.
It was no longer two single people entertaining the idea of a relationship – it was a family of people working together to create space for potential unity, peace and harmony.
Each was searching for something, but we were from two totally different worlds.
Did we move forward? Could we move forward?
Could we take the measures necessary to see the truth behind what we were feeling?
Would we dip our toes in the water and flow with the uncertainty of what life was offering?